Well here is another body update picture. GROSS! I really honestly cant tell, but it looks like Im a little smaller. Im still a pig, just an itty bitty smaller version pig of the last picture I posted.
This has been so incredibly hard. Not that Im hungry or starving, just being able to find the right foods, and drinking enough water. I really dont drink enough, for example, its 3pm and I havent had a single drop of water. Not good.
I dont know how much I weigh because I havent been able to get to a scale.
I havent gone on any binges or anything. But I have been feeding on lots of chicken noodle soups.. ugh.
I also need to be more active and not sit in bed and cry my fucking eyes out..which brings me to my next point...
I also need to be more active and not sit in bed and cry my fucking eyes out..which brings me to my next point...
My depression has an evil grip on my life and sometimes it loosens its grip enough for me to just breathe a little.
Its so hard to stop thinking about my ex-boyfriend and all the shit he has done to me in the last 6 months and having to swallow the fact that he is apparently in love with some new girl, who can fit into a 2 piece bathing suit. A girl he can look at naked with the lights on, he can kiss her flat tummy..
This really is brutal. I really need to get through this. Its eating me up inside. I feel like fucking dying.